Month: October 2024

I tried to keep it steady,
tried to find the words so true,
but one slip in the silence,
and I shattered me and you.

I meant to say I missed you,
meant to show I cared,
but out came something bitter,
words that stripped us bare.

I watched your eyes go distant,
saw the colour drain away,
and in that fragile heartbeat,
you were gone before I’d stay.

If I could take them backward,
if I could press rewind,
I’d cradle every sentence,
and hold the sharpest line.

But words once freed can cut and scar,
and some wounds don’t repair—
I’m left here with the echoes,
of what we almost shared.

Now all that’s left is silence,
a space I cannot fill,
haunted by my clumsy tongue,
and the way it broke my will.

In the quiet dawn, when the world was still,
She lit up my life, without effort, no will.
Eyes like embers, warm and bright,
Guided me softly through the longest night.

Her laughter danced like a gentle breeze,
Calming the storm, putting my soul at ease.
Every word, a melody, soft and true,
Every smile, a sunrise breaking through.

She’s the best thing I ever saw,
In her, no flaw, just wonder and awe.
A spark that glows, a soul so free,
The world grew brighter, the day she found me.

When she holds me close and tight,
The world outside fades, losing its fight.
Her heartbeat whispers, soft and near,
A lullaby only I can hear.

In her embrace, I find my peace,
All my worries gently cease.
A warmth so deep, a love so true,
Her arms are home, where skies are blue.

No storm can shake, no night can chill,
In her arms, the world stands still.
Safe and sound, with her I stay,
Wrapped in love that lights my way.

I stood beside you, watched you grow,
Through every choice, both high and low.
I held you close, my heart in hand,
In silence tried to understand.

But every turn, the hurt returned,
A gentle flame that slowly burned.
I gave you space to choose your way,
While losing more of me each day.

I wanted you to find your light,
But shadows kept me up at night.
I cheered you on, yet felt the sting,
Of loving you, and losing wings.

Now here I stand, with quiet grace,
Knowing I must leave this place.
I hope you thrive, I hope you see,
But now I must set myself free.

So this is goodbye, my final plea—
Live as you wish, but without me.

I need to go now, leave you in the past,
The ties we knotted, they could never last.
Our hands once clasped, now slipping through the air,
The weight of silence, more than I can bear.

I lingered long in shadows of our time,
Hoping your echo might still rhyme with mine.
But love unravels when it’s meant to end,
And hearts, though shattered, somehow learn to mend.

No longer can I dwell in what we were,
The pages turned, the lines now just a blur.
I need to go now, break the chains that bind,
To seek the light that I alone must find.

So farewell to the dreams we couldn’t keep,
I’ll walk away while the world falls asleep.
The dawn awaits, and I will rise anew,
I need to go now—to live without you.

By candle’s glow, I lie awake,
The shadows dance, my heart does ache.
The flame is soft, but burns so bright,
Yet can’t replace your warmth tonight.

The room is still, the world is far,
Each breath I take feels like a scar.
The silence speaks, though nothing’s said,
Without you here, this empty bed.

The flicker fades, the night grows cold,
And memories of you unfold.
Your laughter, touch, your tender gaze—
I miss you in a thousand ways.

By candlelight, I wait and yearn,
For your return, for love’s return.
Till then, this flame will guide my dreams,
But none as bright as where you gleam.

It’s easier than it should have been
To walk away from where we’ve been.
Your silence turned the spark to ash,
A quiet burn that didn’t last.

Each word you never cared to send
Became the distance we defend.
No battles fought, no reason sought,
Just empty space where love forgot.

And now the weight of what we lack
Feels lighter as I don’t look back.
I thought that leaving you would sting,
But silence makes it easier than anything.

I type out thoughts that never fly,
Words that linger in my sky.
I see your name and hesitate,
For time and distance hold their weight.

“I miss the way we used to laugh,”
But it’s too soon, or too far past.
“I saw a sunset you’d have loved,”
But silence fits us more than words.

A meme that makes me think of you,
A random joke, some news, or two.
The impulse fades before I press,
Because we both deserve the rest.

I wonder if you do the same,
Drafts that live without a name.
And though we’re quiet, lost in time,
You still drift through this heart of mine.

 

Some ones I never sent……

– “Remember that one time at the café? Where I thought you were going to drag the barista across the table? :D”

– “Saw someone with your laugh on the train… and for a second, I forgot where I was.”

– “It’s raining like that day when I got soaked on that first date”

– “I miss our late-night talks, but I guess some things are better left unsaid.”

Through the storms we made, the nights we broke,
I still see your heart in every word you spoke.
No matter the shadows that crept between,
In my eyes, you’re still the queen.

The mistakes, the distance, the tears we bled,
Mean nothing to me when I lie in bed
And picture your smile, the warmth of your touch,
Because darling, you’ll always mean that much.

You’ve made your choices, I won’t deny,
But to let you go? I’ll never try.
For even in the mess, in the cracks, in the scar,
You are enough, exactly as you are.

I don’t need the world to tell me who,
Because my heart’s been screaming, “It’s always you.”
No matter what’s done, no matter the cost,
Without you, my love, I feel lost.

So here I stand, broken but true,
Madly in love, just waiting for you.
You’re more than enough, you always will be—
Come back, my love, come back to me.

 

This poem expresses my unwavering love despite whatever has happened, and emphasizes that she is irreplaceable and deeply important to me.

John